I open the door of our apartment and slowly walk in. I see two people, a man and a woman, holding guns. They don’t say a word. Neither do I. I walk from the hall to the kitchen to the bathroom, seeing more people inside, feeling them follow my every step with their eyes. More […]
Read MoreNot afraid
‘You are the best mama’, – my daughter just whispered in my ear. And even though I know that, many times us, mothers, are so hard on ourselves, often too hard. Hearing her say that simply melted my heart. A few days ago my mom was less forgiving. ‘You don’t look like a 41 year […]
Read MoreMy riches
And there she was… To be more precise, there she was somewhere two floors above me. ‘Nothing makes you feel like a woman till you squeeze a baby out of you’, – I announced, an expert after my daughter was born. Nothing makes you feel in as much of a loss untill your newborn is […]
Read MoreThe shades of grey
As I write this, I see the grey sky. Which is perfect. You know how some things in life are a grey area? I’d say grey is my least favorite color, dull and boring. I’d much rather choose white or black, or better yet, all the rainbow colors. But some things are just too intricate […]
Read MoreTime
‘I love daddy’, – says my daughter. ‘I love daddy, too’, – I feel my eyes swelling up. ‘I love Spiderman, too’, – she adds. My face instantly breaks into a smile. The ways of my daughter never seem to amaze me. Our time together is precious. Call me a hypocrite. For someone who has […]
Read MoreUnprepared
I’m sure by now you have all heard about the Oscars this year. The incident between Will Smith and Chris Rock reached even me (cheers, Kristina!), deep into the prep for my move back to Europe. But no matter what you think of this moment and the behavior of the men above, you gotta admit […]
Read MoreThe grass is greener
I often catch myself thinking: -When I have more money, my life will be so much better. -When I find a man, THE man, my life will be so much better. -When I get a new job, my life will be so much better. -When I have my own place, finally, my home, my life […]
Read MoreOh, baby!
I was at a baby shower a couple of weeks ago. It was so much fun: lots of good friends, laughter, mojitos (for some ‘virgin’, for me – definitely not) and finger lickin’ good food. At one point, while gathering around a yummy dip and tortilla chips, and talking about the joys and hardships of […]
Read MoreThe things I want
‘I want daddy’, – says my little one almost every night before falling asleep. ‘I want him too’, I echo in the dark. I want, in no particular order: My dinner ready, when I get home from work.My house cleaned, because he hasn’t found a job yet.My laundry done, because he is good at it. […]
Read MoreThe wait
When all you hear and see is war, nothing else matters as much. All you want is for it to end, and wish it had never started in the first place. All you can do is wait, and it’s the longest wait. During my backpacking years I often found myself wishing for one thing only […]
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