When asked for an update, my friend Karla said: ‘I have a nanny. She comes once or twice a week. And I go to these meetings, where…’. I stopped listening as soon as I heard ‘and I go’. Me? I also go. I go places with my daughter or I don’t go at all. I […]
Read More(not) Gone
About a week ago I took ‘spring cleaning’ to a new level. I cleared my phone from all the long forgotten contacts, messages, pictures. In short, I deleted the numbers of all the boys I had had any contact with in the past few years. All but one. His number is safely tucked in under […]
Read MoreShort story
A couple of weeks ago. ‘You should invite me over,’– I write to him. You know that when it comes to getting what I want, I’m not the shy type. ‘Come over,’ – he agrees. Oh my god. This is finally happening. ‘Can I really come?’ – I have to make sure. I can’t afford […]
Read MoreIf I could read the world
What were you thinking about when you were 15? I was definitely not thinking about the problems in our society, the major issues affecting everybody in our world. Unlike Anne M. Frank, barely 15, who was writing in her diary, sometime at the beginning of the 20th century, about the sad reality of women being […]
Read MoreGrowing up
‘You are not like other parents’, – a mother of my daughter’s friend tells me. ‘But really, – I continue. ‘After not seeing her the whole day while I work, I can’t wait to pick her up from the kindergarten’. That is so true. It gets crazy sometimes, but every day I can’t wait to […]
Read MoreWe’re good, babe
I am not about the new year resolutions. But this year I have decided to make one. It is not the usual ‘I’ll start something this coming year’ resolution. It is ‘I’ll stop something this coming year’ resolution. In 2023 I will stop asking London boy to come and see me. Because I still do. […]
Read MoreWhere the boys at?
‘A man has two women. One he lies to, the other one he tells the truth. Which one does he love?’ ‘Of course he loves the one he lies to’, I think to myself. He lies to her because he wants to protect he. So it means he loves her. Right? Wrong. As soon as […]
Read MoreI’ve got you, baby
She has finally learned to say it right. Almost: ‘I love you… infinity… back… infinite times’. I had been telling her this since the day she was born: ‘I love you to infinity and back infinite times’. It’s so rewarding to hear her say it back. My daughter is a talker. She does not stop. […]
Read MoreFriend zone
‘Have you got any friends?’ That came from a new acquaintance about a week ago. I found the question a bit strange. Who doesn’t have friends? Of course I do! But maybe there are people among us who are alone – be it by their own choice or not. Besides, how many true friends have […]
Read MoreBetween life and death lies love
I don’t think I have ever before thought that I had been at the right place at the right time at the exact moment of being there. But two weeks ago I was fully aware of it. I was the right person to be exactly where I was. At that exact moment in time. It […]
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